^ What makes you miss something or someone?

I often wonder about the biomechanics of“missing” someone or something. Missing someone presents like the flu to me,all body aches and malaise. Nothing I eat agrees with my bowels. It’s like aviral infection; nothing seems quite right when I’m missing someone. And thatmindset of missing seems intractable to a change of thought. It truly is likebeing ill.

I get into these places in my mind where Imiss someone or some thing, a place or a moment, and it hooks into my mind likea fireplace poker. I can’t move it without pain. It seems better to leave italone, not bump it, and hope that it eventually falls out on its own, like theskin rejecting a splinter. Because no force of will seems to budge that senseof loss. No matter how badly I wish it to go.